8. It has been six months from today.

Today marks the six months since my mother passed away. The first few months after her passing I felt like the Holy Ghost was constantly comforting me. As time goes on and life takes over it is getting a little harder and I feel like the reality is setting in and the comfort is wearing off. It is strange how other people who have experienced loosing a loved one, especially there mother, warned me it would get harder. Yet when it happens I still feel unprepared for the wave of emotions that come.

My mom was an accredited geneologist and literally some of her closest friends were dead people. She had a gift. Their were years when I would mock her for this and now I would give anything to have this same gift so I could feel her presence. Why is it such a hard thing to see the legacy someone is leaving until they actually leave or die. I appreciate so much more all the wonderful things about my mom now. I feel very motivated to leave my own legacy and especially with my kids.

I am happy to say that one of the last conversations I had with my mother she mentioned how she thought I should go back to school. She was right and school has been an awesome adventure so far. I know she is watching over me and feel grateful for her life and example.
This is one of the last pictures taken of her with my baby, Greta.